Had no idea that you would come into my realm and produce so many cute and serene memories..
Been in love umpteen times but never was so unconditional as it was for you..!!
I remember i was packing my luggage ..I had to act sapient in order not to miss anything that was needed for my bhau's ceremony.. ..when you were playing all around me just in mood to play around..rollick around.. not making any nuisance and all I could do was speak with you.. And i noticed you sweetto.. I noticed you.. !! I wish i had embraced you then.. I wish i had cuddled you enough not to let go off me anywhere.. !!
I toh didn't even say you bye while on my way to station.. was too hurried to take ur glance.. Thought i toh would meet you very soon at nagpur..!! Damn !!!! Damn !!
Was broken into pieces when i heard you were no more.. ! I could see how you had been through.. I wish i could take all that pain If i wish..I could.. !! I can feel that cowardly moment when i was laughing in my comfort zone.. thinking what not.. and you were taking your last breaths far away from me.. !!! I know.. you must have called me.. but i couldn hear you..perhaps i was too aloud in my space to let in any voices in my ears.. !!
Like vicky told me how it happened to you..i can feel that hunger of yours to breath.. need to live.. need to understand what you said.. I have nothing to say...but this is just to tell you that i realize.. I realize it was my mistake..
Babdu..That doctor didn inform me that it was not safe to travel for you.. that jerk didn tell me.. otherwis i wouldn have dared take you from here.. !!!
I am sorry... Sorry... My ignorance caused you death... !!!!! I still recall..how my dad had his grave expression when.. he told.. how he embraced you when you were striving to breath ... I could see what trauma your death brought in our family... !!
What tortures me the fact that.. I couldn reach out to help you.. !! Mere thought asphyxiates me.. Sorry is such a small word.. Babdu.. I know " I AM RESPONSIBLE".. for whatever happened.. Please forgive me... !! I still feel the warmth your fur caused to my fingers.. I still remembers those twinkling red eyes.. running outrageously for methi.. !! I remmber the dramepana that you did in kitchen .. How you jumped in the garden testing your limits.. how you legs used to slip on marbel.. how you used to frighten in lift.. HOw you used to come over my bed and pee.. i remmbr... YOU... !!
Chotu.. If possible.. come ..alive.. in my realm.. once again.. and I promise.. I wont let you down.. !!! I PROMISE !!! or when I die.. I PRAY to that almighty (if exists) to lay my grave beside you.. And then ..i'll shower all the love i couldn in this life.. !!
Been in love umpteen times but never was so unconditional as it was for you..!!
I remember i was packing my luggage ..I had to act sapient in order not to miss anything that was needed for my bhau's ceremony.. ..when you were playing all around me just in mood to play around..rollick around.. not making any nuisance and all I could do was speak with you.. And i noticed you sweetto.. I noticed you.. !! I wish i had embraced you then.. I wish i had cuddled you enough not to let go off me anywhere.. !!
I toh didn't even say you bye while on my way to station.. was too hurried to take ur glance.. Thought i toh would meet you very soon at nagpur..!! Damn !!!! Damn !!
Was broken into pieces when i heard you were no more.. ! I could see how you had been through.. I wish i could take all that pain If i wish..I could.. !! I can feel that cowardly moment when i was laughing in my comfort zone.. thinking what not.. and you were taking your last breaths far away from me.. !!! I know.. you must have called me.. but i couldn hear you..perhaps i was too aloud in my space to let in any voices in my ears.. !!
Like vicky told me how it happened to you..i can feel that hunger of yours to breath.. need to live.. need to understand what you said.. I have nothing to say...but this is just to tell you that i realize.. I realize it was my mistake..
Babdu..That doctor didn inform me that it was not safe to travel for you.. that jerk didn tell me.. otherwis i wouldn have dared take you from here.. !!!
I am sorry... Sorry... My ignorance caused you death... !!!!! I still recall..how my dad had his grave expression when.. he told.. how he embraced you when you were striving to breath ... I could see what trauma your death brought in our family... !!
What tortures me the fact that.. I couldn reach out to help you.. !! Mere thought asphyxiates me.. Sorry is such a small word.. Babdu.. I know " I AM RESPONSIBLE".. for whatever happened.. Please forgive me... !! I still feel the warmth your fur caused to my fingers.. I still remembers those twinkling red eyes.. running outrageously for methi.. !! I remmber the dramepana that you did in kitchen .. How you jumped in the garden testing your limits.. how you legs used to slip on marbel.. how you used to frighten in lift.. HOw you used to come over my bed and pee.. i remmbr... YOU... !!
Chotu.. If possible.. come ..alive.. in my realm.. once again.. and I promise.. I wont let you down.. !!! I PROMISE !!! or when I die.. I PRAY to that almighty (if exists) to lay my grave beside you.. And then ..i'll shower all the love i couldn in this life.. !!
