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“Wanderer” tats what describes me the best !! “Vella,bleak or a rester”, somewhr back in my mind I know the adjectives defining me are loosin the hold from good to bad !! reason bein simple tht it’s been 23yrs, exhaling CO2 and yet am so ambiguous of my ambition, too confused.. too strangled to come to any conclusion.. still havn’t found out what I’m looking for. This blog just came as rescue to kill ma time. I hope all ma asphyxiation to find a dead end here !! Those who have been part of ma life in special ways remain special forever, no amount of dispute or clefts add insanity to it. But then those need to be real special.. !! I am blessed to have best from "the best".. and still posses nothingness in me .. !! thrz a lot .. but some things are ineffable to pen down.. thts wht am comprised of !

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Ingenuous
Being ingenuous

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

The Capillary action


Capillary life..
Riding on my bike, going uphill embracing the hills, I revise the concepts I just read and suddenly it struck that this phenomenon isn’t any different if applied to our lives..
Now what capillary action is..??.. Rise and fall of liquid surface in a small vertical tube held in a liquid relative to general level of liquid…water rises in the tube and mercury falls down..!! Surviving above the benchmark..!
Similarly… our life is this capillary tube… and what we see in capillary tube-the water is people around us making some of what we are. Inside capillary tube is the fraction of us from the bulk of world that lies outside us..The phenomenon between an entity and its neighbour.  
Living upto parents’ expectations, overcome the phobias of life, competition, stand for the right, flinch the conscience, guilt, hatred, Love, self generated hopes, Learning is involuntary, life is a learning process, the best lessons are taught staggeringly by life..in all this captive state one has to stand taller to stabilize his mind inside his cave. So.. it rises up, it rises up to make his own mark, to say it aloud I am different from the world, Poised and above all inside the capillary tube. It’s the race, everyone has to come out of society and make his impression. Being in the crowd is no more a bliss. You ought to present DIFFERENCE to make DIFFERENCE and be appreciated or chose to be the part of crowd unnoticed.  
The world outside is an illusion, Its not beautiful, its edacious. It eats you once you are delivered from the womb.As soon as you step outside, you’ll confront many things you are just unprepared, un assumed and incognizant for.  And if you are a public figure.. and you do not live upto the expectations of those, they suddenly turn their color..from water to mercury..they make you fall straight on your face, slapped, bedraggled, crocked up. They leave no trace to undone whats been done. And soon you seem nowhere in the picture below the crowd inside the mercury…  !!! Or its just the race.. either you win or lose.
The gravity effect… Up or below.. its always associated with the world outside..water or mercury…  Life remains constant..tube is miniscule to accommodate..and survive.. ! water makes you rise up…mercury makes you fall down..
Luckyare those who balance... Aah..suddenly..mumma’s womb seems the safest place to breath.. !!

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Jeffrey Archer's THE PRODIGAL DAUGHTER


Well, many people have already texted down the review on this very famous novel, still. Ever since I read it, I wanted to write on the "not so much talked about" petite thing that taught me about what it meant to be like "LIVING TOGETHER". 
Florentyna Rosnovasky!!
Name stands aloud but in my thought it stands louder when reckoned as Mrs. KANE !!
Florentyna and Richard love each other and decides to marry against the will of their family after being un-patronized. loped-off from their family, they manage to pull off their lives together, much like a sun.. Like we see, in a simple picturesque, sun-shining in all direction and yet so powerfully alone in his sheen.
Floryntyana decides to run for political offices for which she travels and travels all the way -round the poles. Not a single time I read anywhere that Mr. Richard at anytime felt uncomfortable with Florentyna’s time schedule, long working hours, tours or any complain regarding not being able to give time to her family rather a true rouser. They both are shown so responsible and understanding. They make sure they travel together every now and then, whenever possible, have stayed together. All this, touched my heart and soul.
Both are ambitious and have shown vehemence for their goals to achieve in their lives. And yet, yet they had this strong communication between them irrespective of their work locations. The bond remained same from initiation to end. Richard supported her through thick and thin till he breathed.

Another very cute story that touched me is a little paragraph from “the Past” of her childhood, how her little friend admits that she could not vote for her as she didn’t know how FLORENTYNA was spelled and was cautious if her teacher would reprimand her for same.  

IF the story was to be written in today’s time, the book might have transgressed different  strokes, right from her candidacy for political offices to presidency. Being faithful to Richard and being loyal and cognizant towards Edward definitely makes an impression that lasts . The characters make the story happen. Fantabulous way to explore how relationships work apart from the journey THE LEAD led.   

Sunday, March 28, 2010

fursat mai

This is one of my dream project i wish to realize one day...ever since I heard this song, and heard of director's cut-an event of short movie making in ma college, i aspired to make a short-movie using this song. Owww !! The song is so special and so are the lyrics, Sunidhi Chauhan adds prestine eternity to the feelings of this song.                                                                           




Ek din fursat ne
thaame hath humare
le gayi us dagar pe
jaha rehti hai bahare
chal diye hum bhi ghar se 
hoke kuch befikar se 
dil tha apne bharose
hum the dil ke sahare

Raah mai mod aaya
roshni ho gayi kam
kuch dil ghabraya 
ke kaha aa gaye hum
aage us mod ke bhi
toh bahaare nahi thi
bhule kuch khwahishe aur
khwab the bas humare


bewjaha lag rahi thi
jab talaash humari
ik khushboo uthi aur
rut badal gayi saari
saamne toh khade the
failake baahein
jaise har dard mera 
khudme roke samaye

pal bada mukhtsar tha
tere seene pe sar tha
yun laga mar na jaaye
itni khushiyo ke maare




Saturday, March 27, 2010

Run away


unwanted..place 
can't just I run away ?
unplaced..thoughts
Cant i be more cynical ?
unoccupied..quest
Can't I just be more desirous?
uncoquered..success
am I looser ? or am I a being played ? 
unvalued..presence
Must thr be a supreme power to dismiss the creep? 
unthinking..relations
Can't I be that lucky one ?
like they are .THE HAPPY SOULS !
unuderstood..efforts
Am I an abyssmal schum ?
unenjoyed fights
voice unheard
words tumbled
actions pantomimed
never the less cared
less of high spirits
more of lacrimal
money brings happiness
yes it does
as it's absence degrades the life,
For sure!
can I just not die, 
why can't I be a victim of it ?
who cares if its so early ?
am I a coward..
Oh ! Any senses ??
yeah ! yeah ! 
Let merry things let go by
Let the HIM bliss the destined
I am left besotted 
more of an onus
less of existence
and
ambiguty clears
fog dismissal
mazed and lost 

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Basic one layer chocholate cake (brownie)




















Ingredients
1+1/3 cup (150 g) all-purpose flour
1+½ cup (330 g) sugar
4 tablespoons unsweetened cocoa powder (2tablespoon for if you for light taste)
1 teaspoon baking powder
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
170 g butter (can also use less quantity if not butter freaky)
25ml boiling water
3 eggs


Method
1. Preheat oven to 350 deg F or 180 deg C
2. Line a 13 x 9 in (33 x 23 cm) cake tin with grease proof or other non-stick paper and grease the tin ( I used a bowl but do not consider bowl a good option if you go for double proportion)
3. Melt the butter in a saucepan put warm water in it
4. Sieve flour and baking powder twice
5. Add sugar and cocoa powder to it
6. Take eggs in separate bowl and Beat the egg very well until it becomes lighter and looks like double the original quantity. (As you do while making omelet )
7. Mix 3+5 +6+vanilla essence
8. Now blend this mixture in one direction ( either circular or 8 oriented) till it looks fluffy and smooth
9. Bake at 350F (180 degree)until a wooden pick inserted in center comes out clean, approximately 20-25minutes.
10. Cool the cake.
11. Serve it with vanilla ice-cream ( I used kesar flavor which didn taste good with chocholate flavor)

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

wallpaper

absence

the absence remain transient until filled by someone's presence..